SIGHT- a very precious GIFT

I have always loved looking at the stars, the moon, the ocean water, and those big white puffy things in the sky-the clouds. I can sit for hours upon hours gazing at these things. I often wondered what life would be without sight! I hate to think of it, but with the condition I have, I dont really know how much time I have before I lose my sight. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis which has affected my eyes since I was a child. The doctors at that time did not know what I had, and declared my condition an allergy. I lived with red eyes all my life. When I entered my 20's, I lost my vision numerous times in my right eye. The doctors gave me prednisone drops and the vision returned, but each time left my cornea damaged. In my 40's the vision was worse but my glasses helped me to continue to see all the great things on the earth I loved to see. One, out of about 7 eye doctors that I had seen sent me to NY where the doc told me I had RA. From there I went to Rheumatologists and Corneal Specialists.
To make things short, my corneas are in bad shape, and I was told that eventually they can rupture. For the past 2 weeks I have had blurred vision and really fear that a rupture is going to happen. I see my specialist frequently and have received my second dose of Rituxin IV. I pray hard every nite that I dont wake up and be unable to see. I guess this is my biggest fear right now. My husband Paul is my rock. Without him I would be lost.
Everyone in the world has their own problems to deal with, but I do know that everyone takes things for granted. I have changed in many ways because I know that at any time I can be blind or something else could happen. I ask myself how will I deal with it??? God only knows. It will not be easy thats for sure. It is very vital to me that I live one day at a time and enjoy that day as much as I can and to see all I can see in that day. Life is very precious, and the older one seems to get, the more one realizes how precious it is. My first grandbaby will be here in May sometime and I just hope my vision and life hold out so I can hold that baby in my arms and watch Him or Her grow up!